I saw it coming for miles

I saw it coming for miles
but I couldn’t stand moving my feet.

I saw you moving in on me
but I refused to give up my seat
as if I was craving the blow
I simply sat waiting on you.

I simply sat needing your rage
I simply sat loving the cage
I knew that the storm was approaching
but I sat at my open door.

Your wrath rained down like thunder
and I simply sat asking for more.

I needed your anger to fill me
I begged for your wrong to feel right
but you pushed in on my walls of submission
and crushed my desire to fight.

atrocity

It is an absolute atrocity
the way your absence
seems to never appease me.

All I can be expected to need from you
is your void and the relief at your leaving.

But nevertheless I am left with disgrace
at the thought that I wait just to grieve you.

It is a motionless mess I am left in
when your carelessness washes away
and you suddenly breeze in and look withering
and helpless beneath your own ways.

I cannot be your keeper or conqueror
or a picture of what you deserve
I cannot sit and watch you destroy
every reason I have to still need you.

scapegoat

I watch you slip off with your scapegoat
pushing past your limits still.

I watch you drive into delusion
breezing past your bleeding will.

You’re running faster into famine
wonder why you fall so fast
wonder why you can’t remember
wonder why you’re still awake
wonder why the walls around you
fill with trash and seem to shake.

Wonder why you sit inside yourself
and let the hours slide down your face.
wonder why you cant just leave
wonder just what makes you need this place.
wonder where your next step leads
and if your feet will take you there
wonder how you’ll get back home
wonder why you still don’t care.